Tuesday, April 24, 2012

"And this, our life, exempt from public haunt, finds tongues in trees, books in the running brooks, sermons in stones, and good in everything." ~ William Shakespeare

To give you all an idea of how scattered a grieving brain still is at just 7 months out, I'm still so out of it, that I forgot about my own all-time favorite holiday ~ Earth Day!  It's one of my favorite days of the year.  One day of a celebration that doesn't scream "you should have your whole family here and together", though I wish more than anything I did.  It's just a day to enjoy the world for all its beauty and add something to it.  It's a peaceful day.  Traditionally, my daughter and I are doing garden things all day and never turn on the tv or computer.  I look forward to Earth Day all year long.  It's an extremely important day to me.  And my grief made me forget....  In fact, I can hardly recall these past 7 months at all.  I recently had to ask my husband where we were for or what we did for Christmas because I truly could not remember.

Oh, and 7 months after the death of my son, I'm still lucky if I remember to brush my teeth daily.

Grief is an amazing force that no one can control.  Not even a seasoned griever such as myself.  Forgetting things is a normal part of grieving.  If I have forgotten to acknowledge an important event in your life or to do something I said I would, I sincerely apologize and need gentle reminders from you of those things.

So, Happy Belated Earth Day to all.  I suppose we'll have our own belated celebration one day this week, but I'm still a little upset that I could forget my favorite day so easily...

I'm also beginning to realize that my 30 day blog challenge is starting to look like a 30 month blog challenge.  Procrastination at its best!

In the midst of your grief, what are some important things that completely slipped your mind?


5 comments:

  1. My brain pretty much ceased to function at a normal level since my son died. 3+ years later I still have a lot of trouble. Some if just slipping of the mind, others is not really caring as much anymore. I've forgotten to put shoes on when I leave the house, been late on bills, etc. It sucks.

    Giving you an updated blog link for my blog since the one you have listed is defunct. ;) It's: http://throughgreyskies.net.tc

    <3

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  2. I think we'll all excuse you the forgetfulness. Sending love and more love! (Even if it is a 30 month blog challenge, I was pretty excited to see you pop up in my inbox!) <3

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  3. Ah, grief brain. My excuse for...wait, what were we talking about?

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  4. The teeth brushing still gets me. . .let alone leg shaving and other basic hygiene tasks that used to be no-brainers are now not in my brain at all. Getting dressed. Eating.

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  5. Hi I’m Heather! Please email me, I have a question about your blog! LifesABanquet1(at)gmail.com

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